Six and Half Years

Six and a Half years.The minimum time you need to become a doctor in India.And at the end do you feel like a Doctor?Do you feel like you are equipped enough to handle a Human Being's life in your own hands?

From the First year,when you can blame absolutely everything to the reason that your new to an institution,new to a profession,till the Final year when one is supposed to be well versed with about 30kilos of books,today is the day most awaited by any Medical student.
The day you finish your internship.

From the hectic,sleepless and exciting duties in the Casualty Dept to the dull meaningless Night Labor Duties,nothing prepares you for The Push.
The Push into the Real World.

What it does teach you is much more important than your ability to be a Doctor.
It teaches you Compassion.
It teaches you a Stranger's Pain.
It teaches you to restrain yourself.
It teaches you the Value of Life.
It teaches you the impact of a Scar.

So,after Six and a Half years,5 kilos heavier,after 2 heartbreaks,innumerable praises,a few curses,I am not the Best Doctor but I am a better Human Being.

Fading Passions...

I seem to be loosing touch with a lot of myself.

Oldest.Photography.
My much needed shutter-therapy seems to be getting ignored a lot these days.I seem to have read a lot of Olympus E-5 reviews that I see the E-510 as inferior,even though i have always been against the gear lust phenomenon.

The last of "my kind" of a pic:


I cant even remember when i used the 40-150mm.I miss the bokeh of a zoom.

Newer.Surgery.
Its been 47 days since i put my last suture.All thanks goes to the Dept. of Obstetrics and Gynaecology.No more seeing the miracle of healing Skin.No more fight against an ugly scar.No more saving limbs from Diabetes.Been at home for past 3 days doing nothing and hating it.
How do you scan a ton of books for years sitting at home,hoping you'll get into your field of passion?

Newest.Running.
Last day I ran was when Day Labor duty started on the 28th.Running in circles has gotten boring too,need to find a new Park in Anna Nagar.Transision back to running 20mins gone bad,with chest cramps and breathlessness.Park too crowded in the evenings.Might just have to go ahead with plan to Jog at the Hospital.

Is Back...

...and a lot different.
I had joked few months back that i was finally depressed enough to start blogging.
Donno what t make of this now...
Mid-Night now.
More later.